CLEAN : From village to village delivering aid in Portugal fire zone

The speaker recounts witnessing a tragedy on television, which motivated them to take action by delivering essentials like food, water, and clothes to affected villages. Despite their efforts, they express ongoing fear and anxiety about natural disasters, describing themselves as a 'crazy person in a good way.'

How does the speaker feel when they see smoke or dark clouds?

What does the speaker mean by saying they are a 'crazy person in a good way'?