Ilyus Evander reads "The Cost of Staying"

Ilyus Evander introduces himself and reads his poem 'The Cost of Staying' from his collection 'Heavier Than Weight'. The poem explores themes of identity, financial struggles, and survival tactics in the context of healthcare and personal sacrifices. It reflects on the trauma of self-inflicted hardships and the complex emotions of gratitude and longing.

In what ways does the speaker trade personal experiences for basic needs?

What does the speaker imply about the experience of longing for those who have never been queer?